Tonight I said I was gonna give up.

I took a look at what I had here in LA.
It's been a hard and difficult journey so far, losing so much and trying to maintain my sanity.
I'm over worked and underpaid and mentally and spiritually lost right now.

Talking to Maxx tonight really helped the situation. He reminded me that others have it worst off than I do (something my Aunt Kathy always said).

Sometimes I do have fantasies of selling everything and going to Africa or Tibet and find the meaning of my life and my existence. I just don't know what it all means. The suffering, the pain, the hunger, the fighting, the happiness, the pleasure....

I mean who am I and what am I meant to do?

I'm at a lost right now.

But truth be told there's something going on with everyone right now. It's a lot of weird static energy.

A friend got fired
2 of my friends cars got vandalized
Someone I know just had their fiance leave them
Someone else just broke their foot

There's a lot of chaos and I just need the earth to just quiet down and smooth out right now.