My lucid dream

For years now I've had this dream where I'm being chased by a serial killer.
He's usually dressed in a costume. Most of the times its a gorilla costume something like Donkey Kong.
Sounds silly, I know but it's very vivid and very scary.

Well I haven't had this dream in a really long time until this morning.
I dreamt he was chasing me again. This time there were other people there. I can't remember who but they were there.
He was in a Frankenstein/Ed Munster type of costume. And he was after me!
I kept running and running through this kitchen but he finally got up to me and he had these knives in his hand. He kept trying to stab me and finally I reached for his wrist and with my strength I grabbed the knives and began slicing him.

He didn't really put up a fight. He laid there and let me slice him and then died.

I woke up thinking, "Wow I finally killed him and it was so easy."

When I looked up dream interpretations they all said that I was conquering some fear that was there.

So what is the FEAR?
What have I been afraid of all these years?
Will the dream come back?

I dunno but what I do know is that it felt so good.

I mean the things that scare me are really being alone. I mean really having nothing or no one (family and friends NOT in terms of lovers) to turn to.
I've been so independent for so long but there's a huge part of me that loves people and loves bringing them together.

I'm also afraid of failure. Therefore I'm afraid to say no.
I've also been afraid to truly stand my ground.

These are things that I feel like I've conquered or that don't seem so HUGE to me. They are tiny things. Failure? Confidence? Loneliness?

They exist but aren't the main platter.

So here I sit at my computer thinking about that dream and how triumphant it felt to kill that thing that was chasing all these years.
And now I search for the deeper meaning of it.

And now it's time for bed!

This photo is from the play "And My Name Ain't Peaches" I just thought it'd be very fitting!