Going Natural

So a few years ago I decided to forego the RELAXER and go natural. I have a mixed textured hair. which is still on the thick kinky side. Very wild to manage. Well I was doing sooo well until a family member convinced me to straighten it at a Domincan salon in Harlem. 20$ and that's. So of course I got addicted! I was going like once every two weeks. And My hair was looking good. Then in Dec a friend of mine who's an amazing stylist offered to style and cut my hair. I was brave enough to get a color as well. I got it died black. AND I HATED IT! The black, as my grandma would said "makes you look old" and she was right. It also didn't help the fact that my ass was so pale because of the NYC winter weather. But I loved the cut!

Suddenly when I went to visit my mom for christmas I noticed that my hair wasn't as thick as it normally is and that pieces of it were falling out. I wore it out natural and it was so thin! I actually cried. Then I decided to stop any heat to it and just roller set it on rods. I would do that and notice while washing it in the shower how thin it would be. SO I literally for 3 months didn't put any heat to it. But now it looks again like I've had a perm and now there's new growth!

So I started back using Carol's Daughter products which aren't bad. Their smell is just so intense. I'm wondering what I should do though. I mean its now really long but It's not healthy at all and I;m just too afraid to cut it or even do the (DARE I SAY IT) weave!

Oh its hard being a woman with crazy hair........