My thoughts as of now

Today I picked up my friend Logan from LAX. We chilled and had lunch. Then decided to go to the park and catch Alice in Wonderland. Before the movie started we got into a really deep conversation about the 2 of us trying to reach our full potiential. He said "I feel like I'm so close but there's just a hair standing in the way." I told him I've always felt like that. Everytime I'm embarking on something new and amazing and reaching the TIP all of a sudden something comes along and tries to block it or stop. Its like "No Ciera I'm not gonna let you succeed."

It makes me want to scream and shout and sometimes just get away from the world. These blocks come in all forms: Family, Friends, Finances, and the Foes.

Logan and I then started talking about that's why meditation is so important. His meditation teacher tells him its the time when your conscience remembers. For me it allows me to let go of all the baggage. I often discover that the baggage isn't even mines, it belongs to so many others.

My car ride home I talked to Que and just really tried to answer the questions in my head "how do I get over these humps? Get over these road blocks? How do I step in and reach my full potiential?"
He thought I was just being crazy and analytical. Which these things are hard to put into words and still sound sane. But if meditations and the law of attraction and the universal truths can shift and change energy then why can't I find work as an actor? why can't I be where I want to be? Why cant that all happen now?


Right now I'm feel as if I'm standing at a fork in the road with out signs and labels. I have no idea what's beyond the fork. All I know is that I have no money and very few resources and I'm running out of gas. So what do I do.....Turn back around, go left, or go right?

I guess its time to meditate......