Getting back on course

I have been a little off course lately.

Its hard to try to balance every single thing while so many forces are against you. I cried to my mama yesterday. I told her I'm just at a point where I'm tired of fighting so many battles. She said that all of these negative forces just want me to fail because something good is coming and that I will not allow them to. God gave me favor.
I love what Eminem says in that song "Lose Yourself". He says "Success is my only motherfucking option failure's not"
And that is what I have on repeat in my mind right now.
I realized that with all the stress and drama, I have forgot to stand still. Meditate and pray. I have just been so stressed out crying, eating, curing headaches and have just completely forgotten to give up control.
So that's what I'm about to do now is just meditate and go to bed.